It hasn’t exactly been a great few days, though I can’t give a specific reason why. I guess for no reason I can really figure, I’ve gone into one of my blue moods again, and that’s derailed all of my plans for this week.
I’m not sure what brings these moods on, and I’m less sure of how to pull myself out of them. I think part of it might be the lack of sleep that just comes with working permanent third shift, and part might be just being generally down about my health struggles lately. Whatever it is, it is what it is.
I kinda blew everything else off last weekend in order to work on the greenhouse and to edit my submission for my upcoming writer’s meeting.
I didn’t get up to too much on the weekend other than working on the greenhouse. I’m anxious to finish it, as it’s taking time away from other projects I should be focusing on, including my writing.
The work on the greenhouse is coming along. The exterior is almost done, and I’ve started moving some plants into it. I hope to have it done soon, so I can get back to the projects I should really be working on. I do have some layoff time coming up, though, so I’m planning on saving a few projects around the house for then.
I’m starting to think I may be a bit burnt out writing-wise, and needed a bit of a break so that I can re-focus and push through to the end of this draft. I’m still hoping to get it done by the end of June.
I attended my writer’s group meeting on Tuesday, and it went well. I didn’t get my submission in on time for critique for this meeting, so I’ll be up the Tuesday after next.
Tonight, I have another of my “events” to host, this one primarily educational. I’m not really looking forward to it. I’m getting kind of burnt out on hosting events in general.
Perhaps I’ve been doing it for too long. I worry now that each event will bring more petty, grade school drama from people I really don’t need to be around. It makes me anxious, even when I know the potential for drama is low. I’m hoping it goes well, though, and I can get past it and get on with my weekend.
I have another such event next week as well, more of a social one.
I am going to the George Clinton/P-Funk concert soon, though, so I have that to look forward to. I’m sure that will be a great time and give me a much needed night of funkadelic fun.
Last night I got a text from someone I used to be quite friendly with, though we recently had what I’d call a “soft” falling out. It was nothing major, just a bit of a disagreement, no yelling or anything. He wanted to meet up for a beer, but I couldn’t get away at the time. He didn’t go into details about why he wanted to get together, other than to “talk”, so I spent a good part of my work shift wondering what it is he feels we need to talk about. I worry that it’ll just be more drama I have to deal with.
As far as the writing is going, the only word that comes to mind is “slowly”. I’ve only written about another 3000 words since my last post, and though the story is moving forward, it’s obviously not at the pace I was hoping it would. I know what I have to write, I just can’t find the motivation to sit down and write it.
The greenhouse is far enough along now that I could leave it be for a bit and just pound out the rest of the climax of the story and tie it all up, but for some reason, I can’t seem to get that done.
I want to get this draft done by the end of June, so that gives me two more weeks. That would be an easy enough goal if I was still churning the words out at the rate I was a few months ago. Now, though, I’m not sure if I’ll hit that goal date.
Tomorrow, I’m going out of town to attend a party at a good friend’s house. I’m sure it will be a great time, and hopefully, it will help pull me out of my funk and help me get back on track.
That’s it for this week. Hope you’re all well.
Novel Word Count – 199,784