Decisions, Decisions – March 18, 2019

1500422418-1500422418_goodreads_miscI‘m starting to feel like the White Rabbit in Alice In Wonderland – always late…

Just a quick update to try and catch up.

This week hasn’t been great, but I’m trying to be pragmatic about the whole thing. I think it’s been a wakeup call, telling me I need to get my priorities straight if I’m going to ever get my health back on track.

My A1C test from last week is still really bothering me. I have to do more to get that under control, and though I’ve worked really hard these last couple of years to try and do that, it hasn’t been enough. I know what I can do to better manage that, but doing those things is another story. It might mean giving up a few things that I really enjoy.

I’m still dealing with the fallout from an incident last weekend, and that hasn’t helped things.

Despite bent noses and bruised feelings all around, I’m wondering if that incident wasn’t a sign that I should let go of participating in one of the events I organize. While I do enjoy my part in this event, the extra stress and anxiety it brings is something I really don’t need right now.

Unless we can work out our differences, it may be time for me to just back out of this event. I would hate to do it, but I really have to weigh the extra stress it brings against my need to work on my health.

I have to take stock and re-prioritize things in my life. Eventually, I have to come to terms with the fact that I have to slow down some if I’m ever going to get my health under control. I would hate to lose any friendships over this decision, but I have to trust that eventually, my friends would see that I have to do what’s best for me in this case and that further on down the line, we’ll be able to maintain friendships, despite this situation.

Anymore, I just want to spend my time in my shop, or at my desk, building things or writing, shutting the rest of the world out for a while.

Sleep is still very much an issue, I just can’t seem to get onto a consistent schedule. Some days I’ll manage to get in six or six and a half hours, which is great for me, but more often than not, after about four and a half hours, my body wakes me up and just won’t let me get back to sleep. I was hoping that returning to work would help with evening that out, but that doesn’t seem to be the case. I’m trying not to let the lack of sleep make me too cranky, though.

On a positive note, I finally finished the last of the upper cabinet doors for my kitchen renovation, and have started on the lower cabinets. I’m currently building the first set of drawer faces and hope to get those installed by the weekend. Hopefully, I’ll have the kitchen finally finished sometime next month, and can move on to the next project.

As far as the writing, it hasn’t been stellar. I’ve blown off my daily goal more days than not this week, and have only managed to write about 2200 words since my last blog update.

I’m going to force myself to get back to 1000 words a day this week, and hope this push finally gets me to the end of the draft very soon.

Well, that’s it for me today. I’m still trying to slog through this. Thank you for still paying attention. Hopefully, all of this will be over soon.

Novel Word Count – 156,653

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