Can I get off this ride, please? – March 12, 2019


Late post is late, again.
I know this is getting to be a common refrain with me, but the last week or so has been both good and rough. My life seems to have turned into a constant roller-coaster ride lately, one that I can’t get off of.
The week started great. I was feeling good, trying to get in some decent sleep with mixed results, and was getting some projects done at home. Friday evening I had to host a type of educational and fun event (don’t ask, the details aren’t important) that I’ve been trying to organize on a monthly schedule, and it went very well.
Saturday started off great as well, but things had turned by the evening. One of my partners in running the event Friday night pulled a real diva move that pissed me off, threatening to pull out of our collaboration unless she got her way on a very minor issue. I had asked her a couple of questions regarding the next month’s event and she totally went off. I can’t stand diva behaviour, and ultimatums even less.
In the end, I had to be the bigger person and just let her tantrum go, but that really rubbed me the wrong way. The event isn’t something I need to do, just something I enjoy doing, and I was very close to just shutting the whole thing down.
Needless to say, that ruined my Sunday, as I mostly just putzed about my shop all day brooding on the night before.
Monday got no better. I was still a bit pissed about the diva crap I had to deal with when I had to go see my doctor for some blood test results. They weren’t stellar.
I’m a Type 2 Diabetic (atypical, as it’s a result of a thyroid condition I suffer from) and for the past year and a half, I’ve had some real trouble getting my glucose levels under control. My A1C came back a point higher than it was last time I had it checked, and that’s got me really down.
I’ve made a lot of changes in my life these last few years, things I’ve had to do in order to keep my blood sugar down. I’ve been doing my best to eat right and live healthy, but obviously, I still have a ways to go. Trouble is, I’m not sure what else to do.
I was never very heavy to begin with, and all the changes in lifestyle have resulted in some pretty dramatic weight loss. I’m really self-conscious about how thin I’ve become, which is, of course, adding to my blue mood.
So, yeah, the writing has kind of ground down a bit. I’m still writing, but in more fits and starts, and there have been a few days where I haven’t written anything at all.
I’m hoping taking today to just brood and mope will help me clear my thoughts a bit, and tomorrow I can take stock and start making a plan of things I have to change to get my health back on track.
Anyways, that’s been my week. While I am still writing, it hasn’t been a smooth ride lately.
Hope you’re all well.
Novel Word Count – 154,402

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